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Got back home, took shower and here i'am updating my blog ..
Yesterday otp with you make me confused .. I dont know
whats going on now ? You let go of me .. when i already said
that i let go of you and that was on the 1st feb ..
But end up you still thought we were still together ..
You told me to shout out my
feelings to you .. Like i told you i don't used too ..
But when i kept it for a long time i will tell you how i felt
towards you .. when you know how i felt but you just ignored
it and do it again and again ..
I was trying to tell you yesterday .. but i just can't say it ..
But here , right now .. If you got the time to read this ..
Maybe You will Know How i Felt ..
i still love you Acul , i really do and i hate you too ..
I hate you for treating me like this .. i forgive you .. like i
always told you i forgive and forget ..
And like you said too, i ikot kan hati sangat .. memang betol ..
i hate you beeing selfish .. you penting kan diri sendiri ..
you nak menang kan hati u jee .. abeh i ni?
you patot nye jage hati i .. Tapi ni tak, memang kiter mesti
jage hati samesame.. tapi u cant expect me to jage hati
you macam pompan .. Hati i lagi lembut dari you ..
Lagi, maser salah you , i tak besar besar kan .. tapi maser
salah i you buat macam perang .. sampai when bukan
salah i boleh terjadi salah i .. i shout at you and i will hang up
the phone, cause i cant take it anymore .. Sometimes the way
you talk it hurt me badly , you just don't noticed it sayang ..
You tktau ape perasaan i .. you just go with the flow ..
you dengar i tersedu-sedu pat tlipon you cume cakap sorry
But sometimes you will ignored it ..
But still you buat lagi .. i sabar tetap sabar tapi you pijak
kepale i.. i hilang sabar you .. i cant live the life that you
want me to.. I'm onlu 16 this year and you are 20 ..
you got a different life .. and i got a way different life ..
i maseh nak concentrate degan studies i .. malah u tak, you are
just waiting for your ns .. I lagi nak pikir for my upcoming
test .. you leh continue fighting with me .. when one day,
i beg you otp to stop fighting and you said to me jangan
cakap pasal begging .. haish .. Im sorry Faizul, im Sorry
if i hurt you till now .. Im truly am .. i tkde niat nak sakit
kan hati you dulu .. pedih kan hati you dulu .. i minta maaf ..
:'( i miss you
